Just some thoughts

            I was driving the other day and I started thinking about, well, all sorts of things. Namely I was thinking about my Dad and Tennessee. When I was younger my Dad wanted us to move south. He would be very happy to know we are finally going. Of course he was thinking North Carolina but I think he would have liked Tennessee too.

            Thinking about Tennessee made me realize I am not where I want to be. Obviously physically I am not where I want to be since I am 900 miles away from my new home. I loved New York when I was young. I thought I would never want to live anywhere else. But I have found New York increasingly expensive and unfriendly and overall not worth it. Long Island is, in my opinion, dying. More and more strip malls are being built and remaining empty. There is retail space and office space brand new and never used. Houses sit on the market with open house signs that no one comes too. The roads are horrible and construction projects drag and drag and never go anywhere. I am taxed on everything: earning, spending and saving money.

            Also mentally I am not where I want to be. To me Tennessee is hope, my future, and a happier place. Basically it is everything NY and Long Island have ceased to be. But if I don’t change my attitude then it doesn’t matter where I move it will become the same as NY. I need to start working now on a more positive attitude and world view. I mean there are days where I get up and think to myself I am going to stay positive today and then by 8am I am annoyed. I let small things build up and bother me. Things that really shouldn’t get me so annoyed but they do. And if I let that keep happening it won’t mater if I am in Tennessee or New York.  I need to get away from the negativity and I can’t control the negative around me. I can only control myself.